Update on My Constant Struggle

It has now been 3 and half months since I went back on anti-depressants, not an easy subject for me to talk about but thank goodness I am doing well. I hardly have any headaches and my weight has stabalized, now trying to lose the weight I had gained from being on the harmones for my Endometriosis. Depression is not easy it can disguise itself in many ways, I didnt feel depressed at the time my doctor put me on meds, actually, I was happier than I had been in ages but the physical signs were there, sleeping to much, tired all the time, hardly any energy and of coarse the terrible headaches, now that I been on the meds for over 3 months all those symptoms are gone. I am really glad I decided to get on the meds cuz a few weeks after that I lost my job and God knows if I hadnt been on meds already I would of spinned into a deep depression. Im still not working Im collecting unemployment and thanking God everyday for my BB biz cuz its helped a lot. My finances are not were I want them to be and Im looking for work but I can handle it cuz I am back on the meds, I have a great support system and Im keeping up with my exercise and nutrition.

I seem to be stuck between 184lbs and 188lbs but I have dropped inches and I do not let the scale discourage me, I workout 5 to 6 days a week, replace 1 meal with Shakeology, use portion control the rest of the day and take my meds every single day. Exercise is a way of life for me now, its no longer about losing weight its about being healthy and staying healthy and thanks to exercise, Shakeology and Joe pushing me in a loving way, I am reaching my goals slowly but surely... I love that he is so understanding, he motivates me and keeps me accountable, working out with him ROCKS!!!

Depression in my case is an ongoing battle 1 that I know I will struggle with most of my life but 1 that is manageable thanks to the meds, exercise, nutrition and support from those close to me. People seem to think that depression is a symptom of weakness well Im here to tell you its not, its a disease like any other disease and it doesnt mean you are crazy well just a little, arent we all??? No seriously its a serious illness and should be treated just like any other illness would. YOU CAN LIVE with depression, I am living proof of that! I have a wonderful support system, I have a great family that loves me, I have a wonderful fiance that God totally blessed me with and I have great friends that are there for me, yes life is not easy, being out of work sucks, but I am living each and everyday with joy in my life. We serve an amazing God and he knows exactly what we need and when, sometimes we feel like our prayers are not answered but they are, just on Gods time not ours... I live everyday to the fullest, and I take it day by day.

God is GOOD, we just have to rememer that and take care of what we need to no matter whats going on in our lives...Do not let any situation rob you of your joy, happiness is a choice and I CHOOSE to be HAPPY...

9/16/11